The wrong timing!!

So I tried dating or should I say talking to someone again. Needless to say the timing is just not right..right now. The guy had been my Facebook friend for two yrs and he asked me out but I was seeing someone else at the time but then when me and the other guy was through I gave him a chance. Well the first date went well and we talked more after that but his friend was going through some stuff and he was upset bout that and being a straight up butthole. So needless to say its over before it started. Its not that I want to get married again right away or be in a serious relationship or anything but I just like the company of a male. To talk to and have fun with and what not. I guess maybe I just didn't have my dad in my life growing up and I didn t get that affection like a daughter and her dad needs. (Not to be confused with the sick nasty kind). But I think I'm coming to terms that right now Im gonna quit looking and just focus on me and my sweet loving girl. I'm looking and trying to get a better job and my daughter will be starting school next year so I want to spend time with her. I can really see the difference in our relationship now that I'm not talking to anyone and on my phone as much. I guess when the time is right someone great will enter my life. I just want to take things slow and not make another mistake again. :)

:( Depression

I hated to hear about the news of Robin Williams. He was one of my favorite actors. What people don't realize is that depression, anxiety and mental illness is real and should be taking more seriously. You shouldn't lable ppl crazy or any other names. You wonder why these ppl go up and randomly shoot others in schools and other places but people are so quick to judge and just think they are crazy when all they are doing is wanting to reach out and be helped. Look at robin Williams. He suffered with depression and his from it with his comedy and just put on a happy face and just dealt with it. I've to have suffered from depression. And anxiety and panic attacks. Nobody knows what it is like until you've been through it so let's all not be so quick to judge. Help someone. Be there to listen to their problems.

Lone survivor

So I watched lone survivor tonight and I have so many emotions running through me right now. I'm sad and pissed and I have so much hate in me right now. I know that's not Christian of me. First of all I have always held the highest respect and honor of our military and all branches and to all our troops, veterans past and present. But after watching that movie I have a lot more respect then I will ever have. I cried so hard and was furious the whole time. Makes me hate or dislike those Taliban and afgans so much more. God please forgive me. But thankful for the ones that helped out the Americans. Sorry for the rant and bitterness but we do so much for others and have helped so many and our own ppl have died. So if your someone who is randomly reading this and have served or are serving our country now I want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart for all you do and have done. I will always have a special place in my heart for you and you will always have my respect. And also to the military wives and family who have your loved ones gone all the time and who are out serving and protecting us and fighting for our freedom. I know its hard and I pray and have respect for you as well. Thank you!!!